Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Turning Around?

Well things turned out alright. He went to see his probation officer and he said that he could be off probation as early as July which is fantastic. I'm still looking for places to move. I might be looking at a place this evening. I really really hope it works out. It's in a neighborhood that I love and the rent is cheap. Man I really hope it works out. I just want to move. I need to be out of the house. My sister is having her surgery today. She came up over the weekend for Mother's Day and we all went out to dinner on Saturday. It was fun. So that's pretty much it. Everything is going as well as can be expected. I don't know...I'm just praying that things are starting to fall in place. Speaking of fall...Jerry Falwell died today. I don't really have much to say about it other than the man was nuts...he's the guy who said that the Teletubbies were gay and liked to spread hate around. I don't hate the guy...hate is such a strong word. I just didn't like him or anything he represented. He was just nuts. Ok that's it!

Thursday, May 03, 2007

Freaking OUT!

I'm freaking out just a little bit. Keith's been in a mood all week because he's worried about seeing his probation officer. I can't say I blame him because I think if it was me I'd be on edge too. Actually am on edge and really it has nothing to do with me. Anyway he was supposed to go this morning...I called and wished him good luck and he said he'd talk to me later. Fast forward to about an hour ago his mom called to ask if I'd heard from him. I haven't and really didn't expect to until later. Apparently they got into it this morning and he started walking to the courthouse. He left his phone with her so no one can reach him. I'm worried only because if he got in trouble, he doesn't have any numbers to call because I know he's not going to call his mom. I don't know what to do. I want to leave here and go look for him but I also don't want to freak him out you know? I don't know if this was overstepping my bounds but I called the detention center to see if he'd been brought in, he hadn't and then I called the probation office but I had another phone call so I had to go before they could actually tell me anything. I didn't want to call back just in case. I'm not trying to check up on him in the sense as to where he's at. I just to know that he's not in jail or isn't stranded anywhere. I'm hoping he went home and got his other phone. Worse comes to worse if I don't hear from him this afternoon, I'll call that one. And if I have to I'll go to his house. I just want him to be ok. I can't wait to get out of here. The sooner the better but of course since I want/need to leave the day is dragging.

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

More Not So Good Stuff

My head's been all over the place. Keith and I are not getting the place we intended to. The arrangement fell through over the weekend. I was kinda bummed about it but instead of moving there, I'm just going to move in with him where he's at now. So it's really not all that bad. I think we're going to continue looking for another place though because neither of us wants to be in an apartment. A house would be great but for now that's just not feasible. In other "bad" news...depending on what happens this week...Keith's in a bit of trouble. About 5 years ago he got a DWI. I know that's not a good thing and he could have hurt himself or worse someone else. Since then however he's made changes in his life so that he won't drink and drive again. He knows what a huge mistake it was and there isn't a thing in the world that would make him do it again. He did some jail time which was completely deserved and has been on probation ever since not to mention that he lost his license. Now there are people out there who have killed others driving while intoxicated that haven't had as many issues getting over the charge than he has. He is still on probation and in order for him to get his license back, he has to have a breathalizer installed in the car he intends to drive for at least 2 years. I'm all for the breathalizer being put in the car. I mean if that's going to prevent someone from getting behind the wheel endangering others, than I'm all for it! However it's about time that they take him off probation. I mean come on! What else do you want him to do? He lost his job over it because he couldn't drive to and from the work sites, he had little to no social life, not to mention his independence was taken from him. I think it's time to get it over with. He has to see is probation officer this week and he's afraid that they're going to extend the probation. There really is no reason for them to do so but weirder things have happened. The judge that handled his case postponed the court dates for 1 year. It's just been one thing after another with it. It's done and over with and in order for him to move ahead and get what he needs to done, they need to stop with all this nonsense. He's got enough on his plate with trying to find treatment and all that stuff. I'm just really hoping that things get better for him from this point on. I wish there was something I could do to help but I know there isn't aside from just being there for him. Maggie's officially pissed at me. Not much I can do about that either. She has to realize that when she got married and left, things changed. Marriage is a big deal and it changes not only the people that got married, but those close to them. When she chose to get married and live in Kentucky since that's where he was stationed, a lot of things changed. When she came home she thought it was going to be like it was before she left. Unfortunately, she wasn't prepared for some of the changes that took place. People grow up and away from others, that just happens but sometimes people can grow up and away and still find a way to be friends. It's a weird thing you know? I mean people can be friends but they have to accept that there are thing in a person's life that change. It takes a special kind of person, a true friend, that will stick around through all that. When she left, I was just kind of hanging out with Keith...we were nothing more than friends but slowly things went in the other direction. Now he's a huge part of my life and if she can't see that, then I don't know what to tell her. I told her that on Friday we should get together and hash all this out. There are things that I need to get off my chest and vice versa. So who knows. The thing is that her whole family knows what's been going on since Keith is part of that family. It's not that he told anyone because I didn't even say anything to him about what was happening. She told her sister, bad mistake, and it escalated from there. Oh well...not much I can do about it right? There are only a couple people in my life that I consider true friends and the weird thing is that they all seem to understand. I don't know why she can't. It's just one of those things I suppose. So this weekend I guess I'll know what's going on. Either she'll take what I have to say well or she won't. Either way it's better out in the open rather than just being awkward knowing that there are things that need to be cleared up but because of avoidance, it's doesn't happen.