In Over My Head

I'm really starting to feel like I got myself in way over my head with school. It's been going well so far but another class just started today. I try to keep telling myself that it's all for the best but it's hard when you see just how much needs to be done. I feel like I have a ton of stuff to do (in actuality I don't think it's really that much...it's just that I'm perceiving it as a lot) and no time to do it. I really need to crack the whip...get things rolling. It's hard to concentrate at home because I don't like being there because of my mom and then because the dog wants my undivided attention. I feel bad because I haven't taken her out in a while. I put her on the lead twice last week and both times she got out of it. I don't know how she did it the first time because I had her in her harness but the second time I saw how she got out of the choke chain. I hate using a choke chain! It makes me feel like I'm abusing my dog but there was no other alternative. She chewed through her collar and like I said somehow she got out of her harness. I still don't know how she did it. I was just lucky she only got down the street both times and the second time my neighbor told me that she got out which was nice of her. Her dog gets out from time to time too only it's easier for me to get Keela back because all I have to do is pick up a stick whereas my neighbor has to chase her dog down with steak to get him to come in.

I don't know what else to do. I don't know where to go to get things done. I hate sitting at the library doing homework but I think that's what's going to have to happen. I could go over Keith's but I don't want to hinder anything he's doing there so who knows?! I'll figure something out. He has an appointment this morning. I hope it goes well. I'm petrified for him but I can't tell him that because that would make him feel bad. That's the last thing I want to do. If anything I want him to be happy and just have a good time. I think that's another part of why I feel like I can't get anything done. I feel like I should be doing stuff to help him out but I don't know what to do half the time. His birthday is coming up soon and I want to do something nice for hime but what that is I don't know.

Yesterday was absolutely beautiful. It was warm but not really warm and sunny. We spent the day just driving around. We went to Loch Raven Reservoir just to look around and enjoy the day. That was pretty much it. I had a good time because it was something new for me. It took us a while to find it but we finally did. It took a bit for it to click in my head how to get there. I couldn't remember the name of the road until we were right up on it. It's been years since I've been there. It was good fun though and that's all that matters.